Unwritten

I had an epiphany as I was driving back to Tennessee a few weeks ago. For the longest time I had been feeling unhappy, unmotivated, and just as though there was no purpose for why I was doing a few things in life. I started looking toward the future, and I just wanted to get to something new... something different. Get to a new place in life, because I thought that some place new would provide the changes and purpose I was needing...
Being in Texas for about a week over Christmas truly helped me more than anyone could ever know. It was a different place... I didn't feel as though I had to live up to something... I could just be. I took time to think through why I was doing what I was doing with my life... found my passion and love for what I was doing... found the desire to keep at what I was doing, because I know this is where the Lord has called me.
Leaving was the hardest thing... As I was sobbing down the interstate, "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield came on. I love this song, but for some reason the words truly hit me at this moment...

"I am unwritten, Can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning/ The pen's in my hand / Ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you/ Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words /That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance /So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin/ No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in/ No one else, no one else/ Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken/ Live your life with arms wide open/
Today is where your book begins/ The rest is still unwritten
I break tradition/ Sometimes my tries/ Are outside the lines, oh yeah yeah
We've been conditioned/ To not make mistakes/ But I can't live that way oh, oh"

This song talks about the importance of living our lives... of getting out there and feeling things... because "no one else can feel it for you!"... I've been given such incredible opportunities... opportunities to do the things I love, the things I'm passionate about. Why am I not making the most of every opportunity and truly living to the best of my ability? If the Lord has placed me somewhere, which He has, then I am here for a reason. No one else has the opportunitiy I have right now. No one. God has called me here... and yes, although I know some time soon, I could be called somewhere different, somewhere new... the Lord's timing will be right. If I'm not suppose to be there now, then why am I waiting to get there to live my life? I've been given such incredible opportunities, and I need to live them out to the fullest!

That's where I'm at now... There's so much going on... There will be more to come on this blog. I need to start writing more on here. It feels good to write it all out. Thanks for reading.